Telephone Magic

Do you like to answer your phone?

me: no! i am so not now. i was when younger, loves to hog the line, but no longer.

I was the only child, no siblings, no one to chit-chat or bish-bash with. So, when I know that I can expand my realm of life through a plastic machine, I was fasinated.

Being the only child means there is no one to fight with me for the telephone when daddy & mummy were not around. *advantage of being the only child.

I ever dial to and chat with a friend in Alor Star for a good 1 to 2hours raking the phone bill to hundreds of dollars, and be confronted by my gentle giant daddy, promising him never to do it again and working with him to trash that month's phone bill! Killing the evidence before being caught by the dowager-@-home.

There was a time when I chat with my first bf from 12midnight to 5am when everyone was asleep, but was exposed by my maid who woke up at 4am daily. When the dowager-@-home knew about it the next morning, i was jerked out of bed, thrown into a chaos of shouts and cries and guilt and explanation to do that did not help me out of the situation. However i was high on their radar and never let to run loose again.

Subsequently, i was banned to be even near the phone. The cordless phone also magically vanish from the living room from that day onwards.

I used to dash to pick up the phone whenever it rings, not that there is anyone to fight with me. I love the anticipation, the surprise of finding out who is and what is the message at the other end.

But after THE 12-5am incident, all i feel was immense guilt and fear whenever the phone rings. *can still feel it even now.

Coupled with the suspicion of me having a bf for the first time, all ears are opened widely whenever i speak on the phone. And as there is only one headset positioned in middle of the living room, there is no way of running or saying secret over the mouthpiece, without being scrutinised. *die lah.

My hopes and anticipation of a whole new world over the magic machine was completely tarnished.

By and by, this telephone guilt was buried by dust and not be uncovered.

Even though with the advent of handphones, I regain the freedom of telephone magic, but it is no never the same.

So, friends out there, if i keep missing your calls, what can i say? i don't mean it.

Don't blame me nor ask me change - What if is once in a lifetime winning call and you missed it how? Or emergency?

Unless you are prepared to sweep away the inches thick of dust through healing that broken piece of me, otherwise don't pout or instil more blames and guilt if my telephone magic fails.

My telephone magic has failed long ago.